You have been taking out high-interest emotional loans just to sit in the same room as people who were never going to give you a return on that investment. And the reason you keep choosing them is not because you are broken. It is because they are the only ones who will accept your currency. A person who truly knows their own worth cannot be bought. They will not let you bankroll your way into their heart.

I'm going back and forth with my faith, sowing seeds of doubt and reaping the harvest of a false life that will not end well, because spiritually I am not grounded. I have allowed myself to believe that as long as I show up every day for this false life I can turn it around — but I am realizing more and more every day that it is harder and harder to achieve what I actually want for my life. I am looking for the event.

I have always overindulged in the here and now and never really cared about the consequences of my choices. Over time I have seen that I created havoc in the lives of family members, friends, and others. I am older now and I am reaping the harvest of my poor decisions and the consequences of neglecting my personal growth. How do I, at my age, blaze a new path when I have no inspiration or direction?

I come from a family who has always experienced financial instability. My great-great-grandmother grew up in poverty. She then had my great-grandmother who grew up in poverty, and then she had my grandmother who grew up in poverty, and my grandmother had my mother and they also grew up in poverty. I have now joined a union, a lovely relationship where my partner is very free-flowing and financially, emotionally, and mentally healthy, but I struggle with a poor person's mindse

I grew up in a single-parent household, watching my mother carry more weight than one person should. She worked tirelessly to provide for me and my baby brother, and because of that, I had to grow up fast. I never had that steady presence of a father to tell me I was enough, to affirm me, to model what love from a man should look like. Because of that, I went searching for it. I gave my love away too easily, thinking if I could just be enough for someone, they wouldn’t leave